So I've come to the conclusion that I really do need help. My depression has been getting worse and worse and I've never told an actual person, friend, or family member. It's gotten to the point where I no longer find happiness in the things in normally love, my mind is full of negative thoughts that won't go away and I just don't find life bearable anymore. I'll try to talk with my dad about it today and see if he thinks in need help as well and if he can do anything about it. I don't want to be this mess anymore. I want to enjoy life and have the will to try new things and push through challenges without breaking down. I want be able to make new friends and just overall be the best I can and I can't do that with my mind constantly battling me.